Friday, August 27, 2004
I cant stop scratching... my skin becomes very itchy stimes.... most of the time when i veri cold... end up scratchin till red red... jia lat... nowadays worse it think... duno wats wrong... dear goin to scream when he see me scratchin tomolo... cham... hope i can control....Anywae tomolo dear dear most prob comin over... this time i thin quite confirm... jialat... feel veri nervous abt it... maybe we will jus come over my house... hang ard a while and then go out again... haaha... maybe get him to fix the router? got to ask my bro... dear u nervous?
Today veri sian at work.... think my colleague realise it a lot... $$$... overseas... HSBC? hmmm... duno how.... he said he got a fren whose dad gave him $200k to study overseas... some pple are so damn rich... i wish i got the luck too.... but of cos there will be cons too... maybe i wont grow up to be wat i m? as in my character? hahaha.... Aniwae my colleague estimated tt he would need $60k if he were to study overseas... ME? think nan loh.........
Realli veri sian leh.... call my dear... ask him wan to book ani movies ornot.....
ME: alo...
DEAR: dear ah... wo zai da pool leh...
ME: huh?
DEAR: wo zai da pool leh... wo den yi xia da gei ni k?
ME: ok.....
Pool... i long time no play also.... lousy at it i think.... hahaha... still remember the last time i played pool was wif NPCO pple... so funni... i think countdown or sthin.... shld be last last yr ba.... or issit Christmas? i forgot.... Christmas reminds me of Huiling... Reminded me of the time we went to KTV to celebrate christmas... that was the 2nd last outing we haf wif her... The last one was a movie... wif dawei, jiaping, fangz they all... at bugis... and the last conversation wif her was via icq... she asked me out... but i said i cant make it.... sorry huiling... i m so sorry.... its too late le rite? huiling... ur departure was a great shock to us all... i couldnt believe it when mingshun told me tt time... i still remember it clearly... tt day... a sunday...
I was sleepin when Mingshun called me up... he asked if whether u or Fangz called me... I said nope... and went back to sleep...
After a while, i received another call from him again... He said sthin happened to u... he said u were gone... i couldnt believe it... i jumped out from bed and scolded him... i screamed at him... i told him not to play... not to joke... but i know sthin was wrong from his voice... and i started cryin too... he told me to on teletext... i went out and shouted for the tv remote... snatched it from my cousin... i kept cryin... thoughts jus appeared... i wished i was dreamin... havin a nightmare... i was shoutin... screaming at mingshun... i duno... i cant find the page... tears jus dropped... i saw the news... the words jus stared at me.. i couldnt read it at all... My aunt came into my house and saw me cryin... she shouted for my mum... my mum asked me wat on earth am i cryin for... i shouted back... huiling mei you le.... wo de peng you mei you le...
I jus kept readin... news sank into me... i hung up... b4 i hung up, Mingshun told me not to tell fangz yet... but i cant... i haf to tell her... I call her up... she sounded normal... but when i mentioned huiling, she admitted she found out too... she said the rest told her not to tell me... wat were they thinkin of i had no idea.... no idea at all.... i duno wat to do.... she duno wat to do... Somehow she arranged to come over... to my blk... but we ended walkin to her blk... On e way, thoughts jus kept comin to my mind.... We were supposed to go buy her present today her bdae present... the motorbike miniature thingy we saw at bugis tt time... we wanted to give her a surprise... now we cant... We were supposed to attend Keat Hong's performance at VCH tt day... Huiling said she will come... the tickets were all wif me... I was tryin to ctt her the night before... the sat nite... on e way to mac.... i was tryin to ctt her... i smsed her... tellin her to ctt me asap... tt i need to confirm her attendence... the phone got thru but no one answered... it jus kept ringin... i supposed at tt time, the accident had already happened... RSS Courageous... An accident tt could haf been avoided... negligence... i hate it....
We reached fangz home... we called up the co pple... to tell em... to inform em... i duno... cos we goin to the wake.... i couldnt tolerate it... callin em up... some knew of the incident... but none could confirm it was huiling... our dear huiling.. the jubilant, cheerful and friendly huiling... the sister... the ah beng to me... the ah beng tt always call me ah lian... the tan gal who loves sports.. esp bball... and mahjong.. the caring gal... responsible president... helpful senior... She put in a lot for co... she was dedicated to npco... i miss you....
We still went for the performance... but i was lookin ard more... cos huiling told me she will go one... she told me to reserve a tic for her... After tt we went to her blk... Mani met to go... Tiong Bahru mrt i think... she lived at telok blangah... Mani came... current members... graduates... teachers... other casscians... her fren cat... we met b4... when huiling met up wif me at my attachment place to go for dinner... see she was such a nice fren... see? mani officers... navy... mani pple... But when i reached, the prayers... i heard it... i saw huiling photo... i cant take it... i ran away... cried... i jus cant take it... she was gone jus like tt... realli.... i cant take it... the funeral procession was the day of her bdae... 23rd.. huiling... i miss u... you were a great fren... truely...
8/27/2004 08:55:00 pm
