Friday, March 27, 2009
Dear Meow Me,I will be going to Indonesia this weekend for prayers and wont be goin to visit u at 232. But I will go next week.. Hope u wont be angry with me..
I have just passed Yenling n sis their thumbdrive with ur photos and video clips. Yenwei will burn it into a cd for me... Then I will also upload it here n at ur facebook group. Whilst looking thru the photos, I realised that you didnt took any photos with Ah gong.. Jack uncle etc.. even Po Po.. Quite saddening to realise this.. =(
A brief conversation with a colleague today left me really mad with anger. The way she described the life of her kid's hamster made me so furious I felt like shouting at her. But of cos I didnt, but not without giving her a very stern look and some harsh words on keeping pets.
I passed ur Benebac to my colleague Corrine today. Hopefully whatever benefits this supplement brought to u brings to her doggies too.. As for ur dry food and supplement, Jack uncle has already passed it to his fren. Hope his cats like the food.. Will be calling up AMK with rgds to ur I/D and pro kolin tomolo.
Meow Me... I gtg le. Its a very short entry today... feeling quite tired. But I really dun mind a dream of u.. pls.... Nitey Me Me...
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3/27/2009 12:03:00 am
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Dear Meow Me..Ur uncle Jack skidded on his bike whilst on the road today.
Kena some scratches. The bike suffered some scratches too. The same bike that u rode on a few times remember?
My baby.. pray for the family well being ok? We cant afford to have any more unfortunate events le. Our heart cant take it... Please? I love u...
By now, ur ashes will have been surrounded by those of ur little frens. Do hope that you guys & gals are building up wonderful friendships and everything is fine. I am thinking of visiting u at 232 Whitley Road on sunday. Will let u know again.. Let me know if u need anithing by coming into my dreams tonite ok? U haven appeared in my dreams at all.. noti cat.. ur mummy misses u a lot wor.. Let me dream of u tonite ok? ..please...
I had a bit of conflict with ur dad today. Feels that he is being insensitive to how I am feeling now. Sigh. Would it be different if he were here too? Is it really that difficult? Time. Management. Time Management.
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3/24/2009 11:35:00 pm
Monday, March 23, 2009
Today is ur 7th mth birthday Meow Me...And tomolo is the day you will be cremated..
Between 10-11am at e Mt Pleasant Animal Hospital at 232 Whitely Road..
I called today to find out more.. to ask questions I had been too distraught to ask on that fateful day... They said there will be a patch of grass in front of the dry well and I can place some little toys etc for you.
Jack said that we can go and pay a visit soon.
But of cos, u will be up in heaven most of the time correct?
I walked pass a cat today.. And she looks sweet.. just like u.. but of cos u are sweeter.
I teared a bit when I was under our blk.. for I was looking towards that area where u landed.
It must have hurt. I am sorry baby..
Remember ur favourite song? Twinkle Twinkle Little Star?
The song I always sing to u whilst I fed u medicine or cleaned ur ears.. just to calm u down.. Tonite, I shall sing it for u again.. just before I sleep..
You are the star in the heaven.. shining down upon us..
Sparkling like a diamond... Bringing smiles to our heart.
Sleep tight Meow Me.
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3/23/2009 10:34:00 pm
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Dear Meow Me..I broke the news of ur departure to Yenling and family last nite. Whilst they were cabbing home.. They were on a trip to Hongkong remember? I didnt want to shock them when they walk over and see the plastic mesh removed. They are sure to walk over to look at you..
They broke down too... They were in shock too.. Yes my dear.. they love u too... how can I not like u? They mourned for u.. I was so sorry to end their trip with the news.. When Po po and I told them wat happened, we couldnt control ourselves and tears just rolled down once again... Po Po mentioned how pained she felt when she carry u.. how pitiful u were with the bleeding and meowing away. It really broke her heart. It broke mine too... to hear of ur dreadful state and the pain she felt.. She had to take gastric pills yesterday and she felt rapid heart beats the day before. She really was in pain my dear... When the family left, I followed Po Po to her room.. laid down next to her and cried with her.. hugged her... She told me how pained she felt.. for you spent most of ur time with her.. she was upset that she didnt managed to prevent the accident and that u were gone... I had to assured her again and again that nobody is to be blamed.. Meow Me.. u dun blame anyone of us rite? Should u blame us, pls put all the blame on me... for I am ur mother and I am the one who is responsible for ur well-being... I am sorry Meow Me...
This morning, I went over to their house. Got Yenwei to show me the present she bought for u. Yes baby, they bought a gift for u... A pineapple-shaped "house" for u to sleep in.. It was lovely.. Really pretty.. We couldnt help but cried again... I could see u playing in it.. curling urself up in it.. pouncing at the green leaves on top.. You would have loved it so much! But unfortunately, u left even before u can see it.. I see no point in accepting the gift though I appreciate their kindness very much.. For having it in the house will make everyone miserable.. I am sure u understand what I mean love. So thank them and bless them too ok?
In the afternoon, we went to the Guan Yin Temple today to pray for u.. Po Po, Jack, Sylvia, Pei Pei and me. I prayed for ur safety and that you will be well in heaven.. It was raining heavily and I was reminded of how frightened u are of thunder. Po po once mentioned to me that you came meowing to her when the thunder roared. I hope u managed to overcome ur fears with the help of ur little frens. Its nothing my dear.. just sthin to do with air pressure. I had ur collar in my pocket all the while.. It felt nicer this way I feel.
On the way home, we saw the rainbow. A lovely rainbow which was quite comforting. Perhaps you asked them to show us the rainbow? Were u and ur frens playing on it? Hopefully u like the rainbow too.. the very first rainbow u have seen I believe...
Darling dear.. just now I heard Ah Gong mentioning abt you.. That his heart still pained for u.. You aint there to greet him anymore.. no blacky nose for him to rub anymore.. no more flipping over onto ur back on the kitchen floor.. You will be missed dearly..
My baby... as u will have felt.. ur departure meant a lot to all of us.. the loss is unmistakeningly a heavy one... We all have a common wish.. to wish u well in heaven.. once again I pray.. rest in peace Meow Me..
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3/21/2009 11:05:00 pm
Friday, March 20, 2009
You know, Meow Me, I woke up this morning still hugging ur sister.The sound from ur collar bell on her sounds so very familiar.
It was as if I could picture it on you once again. You lying there on my bed once again...
If only... if only...
It felt very different this morning.
You werent there. Not by my bedside.. not in the kitchen room.. Not at the main gate..
No one for me to feed..
I called out for u in the bathroom.. Did you heard me?
When I opened the bathroom door, u werent lying there waiting for me, between the washing machine and the door. I stared for a while.
When I automatically close the toilet door again, I felt the feeling again.
The realization that you aint here anymore. The truth dawned on me again..
There's no longer the need to close the door.. For u wont go into the bathroom anymore. Would you?
When I left the house, you werent there at the gate.
When I came home, you werent there too.
Where were u?
The gate felt so strange without the plastic mesh.. The mesh that ur daddy n me put up for u on 14th Dec 2008.
I thought of u whilst on the way to work. While walking, while on the train.
Couldnt help but think of you. Ur blue eyes.. ur blackish left front paw...
Tears just welled up in my eyes and I had to close them to prevent them from flowing down.
I tried swallowing them.. I tried. I looked up. I tried to think of other stuff.. But all I had was images of you. As I passed by the cats at the chinese medicine shop, I just had to look away. Why cant my dear baby just be like them? Its the same at work. I had to go to the washroom a couple of times. I couldnt help tearing when my colleagues asked abt u. I tried to distract myself. But ended up writing ur name on the paper.. on my calender. I phoned home thrice.. just to check on Po po. Her voice sounded weird in the morning. Remember how close u were to her? How u spend most of ur time with her?
On my way home from work, I wondered, if I were to meet another cat exactly like u, would I want to keep her? My answer was a firm no. Though you and her will look the same, but its not the same. You are unique. You are irreplaceable. There's only one Meow Me. Surprisingly, mum asked me the same question whilst I was having dinner. Perhaps we do have telepathy.. Or were u asking us? With tears in my eyes, I told her the same. Never. There is only enough space in my heart for one Meow Me.
We are goin to the temple tomorrow... to pray for you my dear. To bless u.. for ur safety in heaven. Hope that you have made frens with the rest of the little frens.. Share our love with them... But remember our love for u doesnt stop yesterday.. it doesnt end tomorrow.. its here forever.. never fading... You are a gift to me... A surprise filled with love... a symbol of love.. a giver of love and receiver of love.. My love. You will always be in my heart. Bless u Meow Me...
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3/20/2009 09:48:00 pm
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Meow Me jumped out of the window and passed away this morning.Mum and Jack were looking for her and Jack saw her body lying downstairs.
When they rushed her to Mount Pleasant, she was still breathing and meowing away.
But soon after, Dr Kasey declared that she has passed on.
When I finally retrieved my hp from my bag and discovered so many missed calls, I quickly called back. But I was too late. Too late.
When I reached the clinic, Meow Me was already cleaned and place in the consultation room.
That was the room Dr Pauline attended to her the other time round.
Seeing my poor Meow Me lying there made me broke down even more.
My darling... My poor baby.. There was blood at her mouth still and her legs had stains.
Why did she have to jump? My poor Me Me... As I knelt down and look at her, she looked like she was sleeping. Why couldnt she be sleeping. But Jack confirmed that she's gone.
She wasnt cold. She's still as furry. She's still my baby.
Her eyes were partially open. And wont close. I wish I could carry her but I didnt.
I wished I had. I could only kiss her. Stroke her face just the way she love me to. Her black nose seems flatter. I cant imagine how she landed. My baby...............
Perhaps she had jumped out of the window when she saw birds flew past.
This will be so like her.
Easily excited by flying birds and creatures. Very kaypo. Just like her nature.
I dun blame anyone for this for nobody wanted this to happen. It was just that moment that the window was opened. Just for a little while. And she left us. Curiosity really killed my cat.
I popped into AMK and let the staff know too.. and kind Dr Thiru called whilst I was on the cab home and I told him in details..
I remember her licking me awake this morning. Its been quite a while since she last did this. For the past few weeks, she has been sleeping in my parent's room. It was only this week that she started to come into my room to sleep again. This morning at around 5plus am, she licked my legs. I covered my legs with my blanket and she found her way to my hands. She also tried to lay down next to me but when I turned to pat her and check her butt, she jumped off again. I remembered carrying her once to check her butt too...
When I woke up again at 630, so did mum. Next to mum walked Meow Me. Me behind her.
We walked to the kitchen like we were marching. When I came out, she was done with her breakfast. Fed her the morning dosage of Pro Kolin and though she initially resisted, she managed to lick it all from my finger. She just couldnt resist. By the way, her tongue has cute little rough buds which is very ticklish. I closed the balcony door to clean her litter and she laid down next to the glass door. Her pooped was stiff! Finally... after 1 week of diarrhoea. Dr Thiru's stomachgyl worked again. I was so pleased! But when I opened the balcony door, I startled Meow Me. She made a leap at me. So cute. But that was the last leap she did for me... She followed me to the kitchen and attempted to enter the bathroom where mum was washing clothes. Noti Me Me.. I carried her out... Love her adoring look.
Meow Me finally found her way to mum's sewing room and leaped up the ironing table and adjusted herself for her morning routine of lookin at birds from the window. As usual, the window was closed. I grinned at her and thought of taking some photos again. But I didnt cos my hp memory was full and didnt have time to clear space for more. I should have.
She was lying down next to the main gate when I was leaving for work. As usual. Gave her my usual warning again on not leaving the house when I open the door. She was so obedient. She just laid there and watched me. Never attempting to force her way out of the door. I bid her good bye but never realised that was my last to her. If only I had cuddle her once more. If only I wasnt at work today.
Meow Me. I really hoped that you had felt our love showered upon u for the past 3mths. From the every first day that I saw you on 14th Dec 2008, I fell in love with you. From not knowing how to carry you, I learnt to cuddle you, to feed you, to bathe you, cleaned ur butt, cleaned your eyes, ur nose, feed u medicine, play with u, play ur favourite game of hide n seek, clip ur nails, trim ur hair, rub ur tummy, pat ur head, ur nose, scratching ur neck n under ur jaw just the way u love me to. We will always remember you and ur cute little actions. How u dislike my attempts to brush ur fur but end up lying down comfortably when u get used to it, even turning ur sides so that I can complete my brushing. How u get terrified when we carry u into the bathroom for bathes that it hurts our heart. Love ur blue eyes, ur white soft fur, ur long furry tail. Even the way u brushed ur tail across my face. Love ur adoring eyes looking back at me when I carry u. Love the way u stretched urself when u woke up. Love the look in ur eyes when u get ready to pounce. The way u tried to reached for ur tail when I was carrying u. You running round n round trying to chase ur own tail. Your soft purring.. your meowing.. your angry hiss.. Ur breathless panting. The way u rub urself against our legs whilst we prepared ur food. Ur meows when u smelled the food but dun get it cos its not warmed up. U licking at the water tray, ur cute pawing on the ground when u are drinking and after ur meals, the way u lick urself clean after each meal, washing ur own face, licking ur tail, body and butt. The way u jumped up the sofa, the table, the bed and getting all tensed up suddenly. Ur hyperactive ways.. ur dainty walks across the room, ur rolling on the floor beggin for rubs but friendly bites when we tried to rub u... the way u walk into the litter tray, how u outgrew ur first litter tray... how u love hiding in the new litter tray cover when I cleared ur litter.. ur cute little face doing ur business, ur pawing at the sand to cover up ur poo n pee.. How u clumsily misaimed and left poo on the sides of the litter tray.. the time u poo on the floor when I was washing ur litter tray.. ur poo on my legs twice.. Having to clean ur fur when u stain them with poo/pee.. And how I ended up snipping away quite a lot of ur fur twice... How u used to run away when u see me with the cotton buds and ear cleaning solution. Ur noti acts of hiding away under the bed, the cupboard and behind the tv console. Ur curiosity whenever I open the storeroom door. How u actually managed to sneak a bite of roasted meat, and huat kuey not once but twice. How u used to sit below Irine's pet hamster's cage and look at it longingly. Ur jumps at the box in the kitchen, how u hide on the stools under the dining table and pouncing out at me when I walk pass esp at nite when i was trying to get u to sleep in the room, making me jump and finally smile. Ur contented look whilst lying down on the kitchen floor next to the bathroom observing my mum whilst she wash the clothes/ hang the clothes to dry. How u love the shoe rack so much, we cleared the lowest level just for u. How u end up jumping to the 2nd or 3rd level racks, messing up the shoes just to annoy me. How u attempted to paw at the telephone lines.. how u used to love hiding and sleepin on the living room's dining table chair. How u attempted to mess up mum's cloths when she was trying to cut them.. how u leaped all the way from 1 table to another n finally settling down at the sewing machine there. Ur first attempt at the window grilles which made me so mad. How angry u got when u cant get to the tiny area under the ironing table cos I told mum to push the boxes there to block the way. How u managed to get ur way by meowing away standing at that particular spot. You are the queen aint u? Love how u chase after the paper balls, plastic balls and many other little toys ah gong and Popo bought for u. Ur mummy didnt need to buy ur toys for u cos everyone just keeps on contributing to ur growing stash of toys isnt it? Ur love for little paper balls esp. And the way u box at the balls, the way u hold the balls in ur mouth and ran away and come back again. And how u love hiding in paper bags.. and pawing at the luggage bags. How u finally started to like the pink scratching post I got for u.. How u found new hiding grounds one after another.. like in between the boxes under Pei's bed, in between the standing mattresses... Behind the TV console, under the little table in my room. How u jumped into my cupboard of clothes and attempt to snuggle urself by pushing ur way all the way in. How u love to fall asleep on the pile of clothes whilst Popo attempt to fold them. How u sleep in Popo's arm, use her arm as ur pillow.. even shifting urself to position urself into a more comfy sleeping position. The time when u lied down on my lap and fall asleep. We rather suffer the cramps on ur legs and arms then wake u baby. U look so cute even when u are sleeping. Ur many many sleeping postures... How u attempted to peek at Jack by squeezing under the door into the bathroom.. how u ended up being left behind in the bathroom by ah gong when u followed him in.. u were so quiet he didnt know u were inside! And he went all the way to the kitchen to look for u when he heard u meowing u know? He didnt realised u were in the bathroom! Then how u tot we were playing with u when we were sweeping and mopping the floor... You trying to kaypo at the stuffs I swept into the dustpan... U pawing at the door to be let into Jack's room when u felt the aircon from under the door. How u love to lie down on his bed... U lying down at areas I want to sweep and refusing to move. And of cos, how u sometimes managed to flew out of the door before we can close it and always end up getting dirty when u lie down a the the drain or under the pot of plants. And of cos our tours to Baby Sitter's house where u can kaypo more.
And how u always answer my calls by looking at me when I call u.. And not forgetting ur daily waits at the gate for me to reach home every working day evening. Love how u paw the gate.. as though u were trying to reach me.
And of cos there were times my heart pained for u.. Seeing u suffering with the diarrhoea, the loose stool, ear inflammation and steralisation.. all these made me feel so bad. When u came back after ur steralisation, u were so weak and u didnt even meowed once. Your tail drooped and dragged across the floor whilst u walked slowed to the bedroom. Seeing such a sight gave us the sour feeling in our heart. I remembered sleepin in the room u were sleeping, hardly falling asleep just to check if u were alright and making sure u werent licking ur scar. U didnt even have energy to climb into ur litter tray. U didnt want to eat that night and only ate a bit around 5plus am the next day. I even had to feed u with a spoon. But u didnt eat much and I was so worried. But luckily, u recovered and by the 7th day u were getting quite hyper.
Dear Meow Me, there are so many many other scenarios and cute little actions of urs that makes my heart melt but everytime u wasnt well, I felt so helpless. But nevertheless, seeing u overcoming each stage and growing stronger and fatter calms my heart. On 14th March, u were 2.6kg! Everyone loves u. Me, ur daddy Shawn, Po Po, Ah Gong, Jack Uncle, Ur Daddy's Parents and sister too, next door Auntie (Baby Sitter 1), Yenling (Baby Sitter 2), Yenwei (Baby Sitter 3), Uncle, Irine yi yi, Pei Pei yi yi, Darling yi yi, Tommy Uncle, Jasmine yi yi, Yuefen yi yi, Kaiqing yi yi.. Nobody can resist u and love to stroke u. Yes everyone I mentioned has stroked u before , remember? Even Daddy Shawn wasnt with us for past 2 mths plus, he has been giving me a lot of advices and always love it when I showed u to him on the web cam. And u are such a dear.. a beauty.. that even the groomers, AMK clinic staff and doc and also Mt Pleasant staff and doc agreed! Even my colleagues and frens who has seen ur pic says u are so cute and pretty. Visitors to the house said the same. Daddy and myself is so proud of u.
We hope that your 3 months plus time spent with u has allowed u to feel pampered and loved. Though you were sick most of the time, and has been on medication constantly, I know u led a happy life here. There were times I broke down with all the stress but in the end, I never regretted having u. You brought joy to the family and myself. In return we showered our love n care n concern for u. Perhaps life could have been better at another owner's house but I assured u that I have given my best to care for u. My love for u has been and will always be there. Po Po has been very close to u too.. so u must remember and pray for her well being too ok? Truely hope that you have felt the love we showered upon you and left for a better place. I have prayed to my Popo and asked her to look after u. Look for her. She loves cats too.. She will look after u. Over there, dun think u will suffer from diarrhoea anymore. No more sensitive stomach, no more poor digestive system. I have placed ur purple collar around the my cat soft toy neck. Remember her? Blue eyed, "white" and named just like u. She shall wear it and it shall remain in my room. I will not be gettin another cat as no other cats can replace u my dear. Rest in peace Me Me.. I love u.. We Love Meow Me...
Meow Me
23rd August 2008- 19 March 2009
(6mths 24 days)
Ragdoll- Blue Mitted
Female
We Love Meow Me... Always Loved, Remembered and Missed...
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3/19/2009 08:23:00 pm
Saturday, March 07, 2009
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspxSomehow true.. What do u think? =)
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
3/07/2009 12:23:00 pm
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Just some quick updates on Meow Me, the blue eye princess.. =)Today's the 7th day since her sterilisation.. Doing quite well now.. in fact running and jumping around.. The scar's still recoverin and she's still tryin to lick it. But the frequency is decreasing though. =) That's good. But ya still biting me as usual. Running to the door to "greet" me after work.. disturbing me when I am clearing her litter.. rolling on the floor in the kitchen and meowing away to gain attention. Think she knows the best way to get attention is to meow loudly. Just on Monday, she started to meow away a while after I left for work. Mum says she came into her room and meow away loudly. Then she went out again and walk around and meow again too. My mum tot she was hungry so prepared her "keropok" for her. But that's not what she wants.. haha.. And my mum just casually mentioned to her "your mummy go to work never tell u ah..." then she stop meowing le. Indeed I never said bye to her on that morning! She was asleep wat... So super duper funny.. Its like she's meowing away cos she cant find me and she wants to know why from my mum.
Then according to my dad, when his alarm clock rang this morning and he didnt woke up, Meow Me started to meow away loudly. Its like she's waking him up! Simply love my cutie pie. Sometimes, I still cant believe it that I have got a cat. Bliss!!!
May as well update abt Shawnie dear too. Like shun bian hor?
Well he's enjoyin himself! He's having his spring break now and he and a few frens took a short holiday to Florida. Currently he's at Orlando Universal Studios. And they visited Disney Land yesterday!! Its shopping trip tomorrow and hopefully I will get a present!! *U better do!! ROAR* And yes he took a photo of Donald Duck for me. =) Tazmania too I hope, for today. Damn.. I am soooooooo jealous! Aint u? But then again, hehe.. I will be joining him at New York City in May. Will be away from work for 17 days!!! Now that's better!!
p/s: Bee n Allan made my day yesterday when they told me that there a sales rep who has been interested in me for some time le.. hehe.. feel so flattered! But he has resigned! So if he doesnt drop by again within this few weeks, I doubt will ever see him again.. haha.. Not that I want him to! Will be so embarrassed!
3/05/2009 10:52:00 pm
