Saturday, March 21, 2009
Dear Meow Me..I broke the news of ur departure to Yenling and family last nite. Whilst they were cabbing home.. They were on a trip to Hongkong remember? I didnt want to shock them when they walk over and see the plastic mesh removed. They are sure to walk over to look at you..
They broke down too... They were in shock too.. Yes my dear.. they love u too... how can I not like u? They mourned for u.. I was so sorry to end their trip with the news.. When Po po and I told them wat happened, we couldnt control ourselves and tears just rolled down once again... Po Po mentioned how pained she felt when she carry u.. how pitiful u were with the bleeding and meowing away. It really broke her heart. It broke mine too... to hear of ur dreadful state and the pain she felt.. She had to take gastric pills yesterday and she felt rapid heart beats the day before. She really was in pain my dear... When the family left, I followed Po Po to her room.. laid down next to her and cried with her.. hugged her... She told me how pained she felt.. for you spent most of ur time with her.. she was upset that she didnt managed to prevent the accident and that u were gone... I had to assured her again and again that nobody is to be blamed.. Meow Me.. u dun blame anyone of us rite? Should u blame us, pls put all the blame on me... for I am ur mother and I am the one who is responsible for ur well-being... I am sorry Meow Me...
This morning, I went over to their house. Got Yenwei to show me the present she bought for u. Yes baby, they bought a gift for u... A pineapple-shaped "house" for u to sleep in.. It was lovely.. Really pretty.. We couldnt help but cried again... I could see u playing in it.. curling urself up in it.. pouncing at the green leaves on top.. You would have loved it so much! But unfortunately, u left even before u can see it.. I see no point in accepting the gift though I appreciate their kindness very much.. For having it in the house will make everyone miserable.. I am sure u understand what I mean love. So thank them and bless them too ok?
In the afternoon, we went to the Guan Yin Temple today to pray for u.. Po Po, Jack, Sylvia, Pei Pei and me. I prayed for ur safety and that you will be well in heaven.. It was raining heavily and I was reminded of how frightened u are of thunder. Po po once mentioned to me that you came meowing to her when the thunder roared. I hope u managed to overcome ur fears with the help of ur little frens. Its nothing my dear.. just sthin to do with air pressure. I had ur collar in my pocket all the while.. It felt nicer this way I feel.
On the way home, we saw the rainbow. A lovely rainbow which was quite comforting. Perhaps you asked them to show us the rainbow? Were u and ur frens playing on it? Hopefully u like the rainbow too.. the very first rainbow u have seen I believe...
Darling dear.. just now I heard Ah Gong mentioning abt you.. That his heart still pained for u.. You aint there to greet him anymore.. no blacky nose for him to rub anymore.. no more flipping over onto ur back on the kitchen floor.. You will be missed dearly..
My baby... as u will have felt.. ur departure meant a lot to all of us.. the loss is unmistakeningly a heavy one... We all have a common wish.. to wish u well in heaven.. once again I pray.. rest in peace Meow Me..
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3/21/2009 11:05:00 pm
